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I could tell as soon as I unlocked the apartment that Tim was more nervous than usual today.
Not in any obvious way. More like a subtle restlessness that showed in small movements. Like how he set his glass down more often than necessary. How his gaze would sometimes linger briefly without him really looking at anything.
We’d cooked—nothing special. Pasta, a little wine, music in the background. Afterward, everything quickly returned to that familiar chaos of the sofa, a blanket, legs crossed somewhere.
At some point, in the middle of a conversation about something completely trivial, he fell silent.
Not abruptly. More like a thought was slowly creeping to the forefront.
“I’ve got something on my mind,” he said eventually.
I turned to him. “Okay.”
He laughed briefly, but it didn’t sound entirely relaxed. “You’re probably going to say that’s weird.”
“Just say it.”
There was that moment when he looked away briefly before coming back to me.
“I’d like to see you when you’re not holding back anymore. In front of me.”
It took me a few seconds to understand what he meant. And a few more to realize just how directly it hit me.
Not because it repelled me. More because it touched on something I immediately classified as: too close.
I noticed how I automatically sat up a little straighter. As if my body had reacted before my mind.
“Are you serious?”
He nodded immediately. No more playfulness on his face.
“Yes. But only if it’s okay with you. I don’t want to pressure you.”
That was the first moment when things shifted. Not into the sexual, but into the emotional.
Because it was precisely that calmness that made it serious.
I knew that feeling from my own experience: pushing things away, talking them down, minimizing them. Maintaining control by staying distant.
“I don’t know,” I said honestly. “I’ve never… done this in front of anyone before.”
He didn’t say anything directly in response. Just: “I don’t want to watch you like a spectator. I just want to be there.”
That didn’t make it any easier. More honest, perhaps.
In the days that followed, it wouldn’t go away.
It wasn’t this big topic we talked about constantly. More like a gap. A phrase that kept popping up briefly whenever we lay next to each other or made coffee in the morning while still half-asleep.
And every time I reacted the same way: first a joke, then a change of subject, then a quick glance that lingered too long.
Until at some point I realized that I wasn’t really against it anymore.
I was only against actually letting the moment happen.
A weekend later, we were at his place.
No special atmosphere, no “something’s about to happen.” More like a normal evening that just didn’t want to end.
We were sitting in the bedroom, lit only by a small lamp. He was leaning halfway against the headboard; I was sitting next to him, feeling a little tense for no clear reason.
“You’re thinking about it again,” he said quietly at some point.
I wanted to disagree, but it was pointless.
“Yes,” I admitted.
He didn’t move closer. That was important. He stayed exactly where he was.
“Then take your time,” was all he said.
And that’s exactly what changed something.
No pressure. No sense of expectation in the room. Just this quiet possibility that I could decide.
I got up at some point. Not abruptly, more like someone checking something before actually doing it.
My gaze briefly turned to him, as if I were looking for a reaction.
But there was no external control.
Just attention.
I remember how absurdly intellectual I was in that moment. As if I were both part of the situation and observing it at the same time.
How I moved, how I hesitated briefly, how my own breath seemed louder to me than anything else.
And then that breaking point, which didn’t announce itself in any grand way.
More of a yielding than a decision.
I stopped controlling myself.
Not completely. But enough that I was no longer constantly looking at myself “from the outside.”
Tim said nothing. No comment, no instruction, no smile at the wrong moment.
Just his gaze, calm, attentive, not demanding.
And at some point, that was exactly why it worked.
Because nothing was judged.
Because nothing was made of it.
Later, I lay next to him, still a little detached from myself, to be honest.
It took a moment before I could breathe normally again without even thinking about it.
“Okay?” he asked eventually.
I had to laugh briefly because the word felt so small for what had just happened.
“Yes,” I said. And after a pause: “More than okay.”
He turned toward me, grinning slightly.
“I told you, it’s nothing bad.”
I shook my head.
“It wasn’t bad. It was more… different than I thought.”
And that was really true.
The craziest part wasn’t the situation itself.
It was how quickly my mind had blown it out of proportion.
And how little of that remained once I was actually in the moment.